sigh

i go to sleep lonely and sad and wake up lonely and sad. and lets not forget anxious. i’m tired of being alone and unsure of everything.  just tired of feeling so empty. and tired of feeling like no one cares. to other people it doesn’t seem to matter.  to me it was everything and is crushing me. it seems like i am the only one that suffers. i’m always the one that hurts the most or gets hurt the most. that’s why i don’t want to let people in.  i just can’t stand how things go from being awesome to this.  How it can make me feel so alive and then feel so dead.