alot.

i cry a lot. and i think about things a lot.  i am now. i need to just try to sleep. i do  so many things online or on the phone or cleaning or whatever to try to distract myself from my thoughts. maybe tomorrow i will get to go to the park. lately and especially since i have quit drinking i haven’t cared about hanging out with many people. i’m not as social when i a sober as i was when i drank. and i’m fine with it. i enjoy spending time with someone and family. and maybe a friend or two once in a while. other then that i rather be alone. i feel so abnormal.