i just want to feel normal inside.

i want my boo tonight. i guess i will be up late. cause i can’t sleep lately when i’m alone.  scared of waking up with svt or panic attacks. i feel normal right now i guess. just a little tired. was feeling a bit panicky earlier though. so me and my mom rode to walgreens and dollar general where i bought too much stuff. but it helped for a distraction for a while. i will probably watch some netflix in a bit. it’s another distraction.  i just hate those scary feelings i get from svt and panic attacks. i just want to feel normal. health wise that is lol.