anxiety…

health issues causing me anxiety again. don’t know why but when i go to the bathroom i will start feeling weak and dizzy and then my heart will start racing. thought i was going to go into svt again tonight. but somehow i got it to calm down. but i felt weird for a long time.  i feel tired now. my mid back hurts too. :/ i had to get dressed in case i had to go to er again tonight. it really sucks. i hate feeling scared of my own body. maybe it’s all just stress and anxiety but it’s not the first time i felt like that when i go to the bathroom. not sure what is wrong but wish someone could figure it out. it’s bad to be scared to even go to the bathroom now.

earlier today i went to the cemetery where my dad is since it was father’s day. i had already put new flowers there over a week or so again. then went to the mall, then to applebees and then to swan lake.